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1/9
Confession: I am painfully human. Painfully. (This thread ends well btw)
I have PTSD, ADHD, an eating disorder, and bipolar disorder (among other things). I& #39;ve been in a hypomanic state for a while.
I don& #39;t sleep much, mostly due to that, and to avoid vivid night terrors.
Confession: I am painfully human. Painfully. (This thread ends well btw)
I have PTSD, ADHD, an eating disorder, and bipolar disorder (among other things). I& #39;ve been in a hypomanic state for a while.
I don& #39;t sleep much, mostly due to that, and to avoid vivid night terrors.
2/9
I& #39;m waiting for the crash. It should happen relatively soon (by summer) and I& #39;m mostly prepared for it. It happens every year around the same time. I& #39;m not looking forward to it. I wish I were normal. I really should see a doctor. I& #39;m going to see a doctor. Ugh.
I& #39;m waiting for the crash. It should happen relatively soon (by summer) and I& #39;m mostly prepared for it. It happens every year around the same time. I& #39;m not looking forward to it. I wish I were normal. I really should see a doctor. I& #39;m going to see a doctor. Ugh.
3/9
I can go into detail, but the short of it is — I& #39;m trying to vocalize that I& #39;m not perfect, and I intensely loathe that. I have chronic struggles, and I don& #39;t like to talk about them, because I don& #39;t want people I care about to worry about me.
I carry SO MUCH self-hate.
I can go into detail, but the short of it is — I& #39;m trying to vocalize that I& #39;m not perfect, and I intensely loathe that. I have chronic struggles, and I don& #39;t like to talk about them, because I don& #39;t want people I care about to worry about me.
I carry SO MUCH self-hate.
4/9
I don& #39;t like to remind myself that I am not yet the person I want to be — the one I doubt I will ever be. I get closer, but it& #39;s literally impossible to be perfect. I& #39;ve finally accepted that I& #39;m "good enough," you know? I& #39;m alright. That& #39;s a huge step for me. I& #39;m not trash.
I don& #39;t like to remind myself that I am not yet the person I want to be — the one I doubt I will ever be. I get closer, but it& #39;s literally impossible to be perfect. I& #39;ve finally accepted that I& #39;m "good enough," you know? I& #39;m alright. That& #39;s a huge step for me. I& #39;m not trash.
5/9
I& #39;m a constant work in progress. And that& #39;s okay. I& #39;m learning that self-esteem isn& #39;t a bad thing, or a necessary evil. It& #39;s okay to be okay, or at least, working towards that. It& #39;s okay to want to store that and thrive.
So, positivity time.
I& #39;m a constant work in progress. And that& #39;s okay. I& #39;m learning that self-esteem isn& #39;t a bad thing, or a necessary evil. It& #39;s okay to be okay, or at least, working towards that. It& #39;s okay to want to store that and thrive.
So, positivity time.
6/9
Despite my humanity, in spite of my issues, I& #39;m doing okay. I work in a field I love. I have time to learn, set goals, and reach them. I have AMAZING partners. I do things that scare me (like posting this).
And I am of service, which is one of my biggest purposes in life.
Despite my humanity, in spite of my issues, I& #39;m doing okay. I work in a field I love. I have time to learn, set goals, and reach them. I have AMAZING partners. I do things that scare me (like posting this).
And I am of service, which is one of my biggest purposes in life.
7/9
There are still things I& #39;m not comfortable doing just yet; there& #39;s stuff I wanna say, that& #39;s germane to this thread, but I& #39;m not there yet. Buy every time I say "yet," it gets a little easier to envision getting there one day.
I& #39;ll get there.
There are still things I& #39;m not comfortable doing just yet; there& #39;s stuff I wanna say, that& #39;s germane to this thread, but I& #39;m not there yet. Buy every time I say "yet," it gets a little easier to envision getting there one day.
I& #39;ll get there.
8/9
The person I am today is wildly different from who I imagined ten years ago. 5 years ago. I& #39;m really interested in meeting the me off 5 years in the future. 10 years. Is she a doctor yet? Did she publish and open-source that process? Has she helped humanity?
Isn& #39;t that wild?
The person I am today is wildly different from who I imagined ten years ago. 5 years ago. I& #39;m really interested in meeting the me off 5 years in the future. 10 years. Is she a doctor yet? Did she publish and open-source that process? Has she helped humanity?
Isn& #39;t that wild?
9/9
Despite my humanity, I& #39;m doing okay. I& #39;ll keep getting better. Idk about reaching perfection, and I doubt I& #39;ll ever shrug off the pressure I feel, or snuff the fire that drives me, but that& #39;s probably okay.
Just, if this resonates with you, we& #39;ll be okay.
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That& #39;s all. ^_^
Despite my humanity, I& #39;m doing okay. I& #39;ll keep getting better. Idk about reaching perfection, and I doubt I& #39;ll ever shrug off the pressure I feel, or snuff the fire that drives me, but that& #39;s probably okay.
Just, if this resonates with you, we& #39;ll be okay.
That& #39;s all. ^_^
