These things that are supposed to make me happy or something just make me sad. But I& #39;ll probably feel even worse if I don& #39;t do it so I don& #39;t fuckin know and I& #39;ve had two thoughts recently that absolutely scared me.

Life has been tough on me recently. I just wanna have a week of being me I& #39;m so fuckin done with this shit right now but that& #39;s never gonna happen.

And I thought a vacation in the summer would make me feel better but it& #39;s just not gonna be the same anymore. Nothing will be.

This is basically the big problem, NOTHING will be the same again for me! Everything has a connection and I can& #39;t stop thinking about it and that& #39;s when I scare myself.

How am I even supposed to get over it? It happened in a flash and now everyone expects me to just go back to normal like nothing happened.