idk like this convo isnt about us but it does go into a lot of how ive been feeling like any small bit of connection i do have with my culture is seen as a ""mockery""

like i want to try but how do i even do that lmao it doesnt fit i went to visit my family in india and they literally told me i was an outsider lmao and here english ppl only want to talk to me about curry or bollywood like what connection do i have?

this is sending me down such a weird identity crisis lmao

i hate my name. i hate it so much but how much of that is bc ive grown up hearing it being mangled and made fun of by ppl who don& #39;t know how to say it? and what does that say about my identity? like is part of me still ashamed??? idk https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht">