A thread: A long one!
One year ago today my life took a very sharp turn. Whilst at a work Christmas party, a depression which had been building within me for, I don& #39;t know how long, came to a head. I found myself comparing myself to everyone in my group until I believed I had no

Right to be there, and I was a complete waste of space. I wouldn& #39;t be missed. If I slipped out of the room no one would notice me missing, no one would care... I had no place in that group of wonderful fun loving hard working girls. I was not worthy to be in the same room. I made

My excuses to leave, the thoughts hammering louder and louder in my head as I drive home. All the while during my hour journey home, all I could hear was useless, rubbish, fake, ugly, vile, fat, worthless, so many more negative attacks from my Psyche. I reached down and unclipped

My seatbelt, in an almost out of body type of manner, I was watching what was happening to me.... The speed increasing, no seatbelt, I remember thinking the faster I could get the car at, the quicker it would be all over. I& #39;d die on impact surely? Who& #39;d give a shit really? I can

Only describe what happened next as some sort of divine intervention. A stronger voice or thought process however you wish to describe it... Shouted at me. John would miss me. My children would be distraught. Friends would be sad. And if that wasn& #39;t enough I could potentially s

Spoil Christmas for the countless emergency workers who would have to clear up my mangled body and car and break the news. Assuming of course I only took myself out..... I don& #39;t remember the last 30 minutes of getting home, I did. I ran barefoot into my house and literally

Collapsed in to my Johns arms. And it all came spilling out.... Everything. I begged him to let me do it, he deserved so much better than me. I wanted to die. I could see no way out. He refused, that night @daddytodomino saved me. He saved me all over again, he did not let go all

Night long. He held me, he washed me, he dressed me, he loved me. He reassured me. I cried until I had no more tears left to cry. He took me to the Dr and we started another journey. A journey I never believed I would complete. I& #39;ve lost people I considered to be friends. I was

Too dramatic and too much of a handful. I was too much hard work. I& #39;ve made friends with some amazing people who have all played a part in saving me this year. I am still on my journey and Johnny is my wingman, when I falter he holds me high. I fight anxiety every single day. I

I am highly medicated and not even close to reducing them but I survived the first hurdle. It has been 7 months since I last had thoughts of harming myself and I look forward to my future. My life is beautiful right now. My first Grandbaby is due in 15 weeks and I have people

Around me who want to be and who love me. Please, if a friend becomes distant, or loses their spark. Please take the time to give them a chance, be there for them. You may quite literally save their life. Kindness costs nothing.

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