i used to write on journals. a lot.

but these days i& #39;m afraid to pick up a pen and my journal to ever put in an entry again.

i started to believe that if i don& #39;t say/write it, i won& #39;t mean it and i& #39;ll forget it in the long run. if i do, it would matter for a long time.

i don& #39;t want that. it& #39;s baffling, i know.

i recently understood my pevious enrtries were the emotions i bottled up for myself because i was too afraid to share it to anyone. but now, i realized that if i keep pouring out my emotions into paper, they& #39;d exist for a very long time.

they& #39;re like tattoos on your mind. you write them on paper but apparently it& #39;s like you& #39;re embedding it in your mind.

you get me? i don& #39;t. i don& #39;t get the whole point of this thread.