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I wish I could stay positive about things for more than a few minutes at a time...; the moment I do, I often will remember some little thing that brings me right back down, and, given the way my mind has been working lately, that& #39;s not a good thing at all....
I& #39;m still nowhere near being able to get back out on my own, and am doing good just to hold down a part-time job that& #39;s barely averaged 20 hours a week since the ongoing pandemic started; I& #39;m still considered an essential worker, and I& #39;m starting to believe this is the only
reason I& #39;m still employed at *all*! Given that I have, as I& #39;ve mentioned before, literally one functional job-skill that& #39;s rapidly becoming obsolete, and neither the resources or ability to learn anything new that& #39;s marketable in any short order of time, one bad day would be
all it takes to end what little hope for self-happiness I have...just want this anxiety and self-inflicted mental stress/anxiety to go away so I have have *ANY* self-confidence...but it& #39;s not like what I have is curable, nor can I afford anything to help with the anxiety.
Can I just have one day where nothing goes wrong?? One day of, well, to sound childish, puppy-dogs and rainbows to give me a little light? I& #39;ve been so down on myself lately, that I still haven& #39;t even spent all of what money I got for my Birthday in August, and yet, I got
