I’m honored to be receiving the @ichpnet Best Practice Award 2020. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🏆" title="Trophäe" aria-label="Emoji: Trophäe">

I’ve already shared a bit about developing a pharmacist role in the peds lupus clinic, so today...

Here are some https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💭" title="Gedankenblase" aria-label="Emoji: Gedankenblase"> for pharmacy residents struggling w/ impostor syndrome, or just struggling rn.

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A secret https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤫" title="Schh!-Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Schh!-Gesicht">: Most of your preceptors and pharmacy role models are struggling, too, or were at some point. No one is magical or perfect. We’ve had our share of mistakes https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😬" title="Grimasse schneidendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Grimasse schneidendes Gesicht"> and heartbreaks https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Gebrochenes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gebrochenes Herz">.

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11 years ago, October was my worst month as a #pharmacyresident.

I went to my 1st code ever, a baby w/ a vaccine preventable illness, 2.5+ hrs, w/o a preceptor.

I answered ahttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❓" title="Rotes Fragezeichen-Symbol" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Fragezeichen-Symbol">incorrectly. I know now it wouldn’t have changed the outcome, but at the time I wasn’t sure.

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A couple weeks later, I was giving a presentation and a preceptor commented, “wow, it actually sounded like you knew what you were talking about for once https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😏" title="Grinsendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Grinsendes Gesicht">”. That was the closest thing to a compliment (???) I heard that month.

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I was miserable. Midyear was around the corner. I decided not to pursue a PGY2.

My career took a winding path over the next 10 years... https://twitter.com/sweetchinchilla/status/1292483291489210370?s=21">https://twitter.com/sweetchin...

My experiences that year, and on the winding road that followed, taught me about the kind of pharmacist, teammate, preceptor (+ for a little while RC / RPD), and human being I wanted to be to my patients, teammates, and learners.

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So, to any pharmacy resident who feels like the weakest one in your class, or like maybe you aren’t meant to be there: you’re not alone and you’re not a failure. It’s okay not to be a rockstar rn. Your path will look different than anyone else’s path.

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Don’t compare yourself to your co-residents, or to your preceptors.

It takes time to hit your stride. It takes longer for other people to notice, and it takes the longest for you to notice it yourself.

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