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I’ve always been discreet about it but I want to make a thread of why I left the smash scene back in 2017 so that way I can make peace with it and move on and leave it behind for myself.
First off everyone in the scene knows I had problems with Isaac in the scene that spilled from personal to in game pretty quickly. We stopped talking in 2015 because off personal issues.
This was turned into a meme in the scene and was turned into a rivalry and made fun of a lot by people like Ergo who would make it apparent at events and make a big deal out of it every time we played.
This bothered me a lot because it happened every time we played and I know Ergo did it to mess around but it just made me feel bad as Isaac was always cheered and I was always boo’d or the majority of the time.
The biggest issue with this I had was at Trill’s birthday where Ergo was being so loud about it and that was the last event I gave it a shot of coming back and decided not to.
Back to topic me and Isaac had a lot of issues as we pushed each other but we both wanted to be better and it made us get better at the game but it started to get worse as time went on.
I started progressing a lot and he would cheer me on at events but it never felt genuine as when we were at home he would call me a b***h, f****t, etc. because I did not want to play for hours on end anymore.
It just didn’t feel good to see a scene support and praise a person who did nothing but destroy me emotionally for the entire time I played. He would not let me play other characters besides Puff while he played who he wanted.
He made fun of me for having depression and anxiety. He would say that is just something weak people go through. During a time where other at home stuff was happening as well.
Towards the end of 2017 I was PR top 3. Isaac started to tell my parents that a lot of people at events were saying that I was being an asshole and that they did not want me to go to events anymore. That the scene did not want me in it.
I admit I made mistakes with people like Sebastian which we fixed after our ROG issue but I didn’t know the scene felt like this as I was pretty antisocial at events and would say I did not have very many friends at events.
Everyone at events loved Isaac so I believed what he said and did what was best for the scene and left. If I was mistreating people in the scene I did not want to be in it anymore. I wish I would have stayed because I always felt like I had potential
But I made my choice and now have to live with it. This ties back to Trill’s birthday fest as I gave it a try to come back but was just boo’d/cheered against at a house fest and did not want to play the villain role anymore.
Just for clarification as I think maybe Isaac has changed now. The reason we stopped talking and all this started is because he would always told me I’m shit and would never be good at the game and always told me that about everything
Soccer, smash, at school he would pretend he would not know me as he wanted to fit in with the white kids in maple grove. But once I got good at smash I started to treat him the same way he treated me and he stopped talking to me
The one time I did the same thing back to him that he did to me for years he could not take it. And I basically told him he is falling off and that I would prefer to play with someone like Charlie that challenges me. That he sucked
I said this after four stocking him with all the characters he told me I was shit with/did not let me play as he wanted practice. That is basically why I left the scene. Because I did not want to deal with all this anymore.
In his defense me saying I was going to kill myself if I lost to him was true. This was the one thing in life I was good at and did not want to be 2nd to him again at something. That was very bad of me and I think that held him back.
I’m sorry it’s such a long thread and if you read through I guess you cared enough to know why I left. I don’t plan on coming back ever as the scene still loves him and I don’t feel safe with a scene that puts him on a pedestal.
I kind of just want my smash career to be erased. I think most of the scene has forgotten about me but I think it’s for the best. I kind of regret joining the scene and wish it could all be erased from here on forward so I can move on and be forgotten.
