Doing a lot of reflecting, now that I have a week to myself. It& #39;s been a long time since I& #39;ve really sat down and actually thought about my life—where I& #39;ve been, and where I& #39;m going with it—and there& #39;s one question I& #39;ve been dwelling on.

What have I done for myself?

I survived school bullying. I made a name for myself online. I& #39;ve come to grips with mine and others& #39; past transgressions, both online and IRL. I graduated high school with some college credits. I enlisted in the military. And now I& #39;m here as a civilian with many open doors...

...and yet I feel just as stuck as I was when I graduated. I don& #39;t know what I want to do. I have a variety of skills and have applied them in many ways, yet I have no idea how to make the best of my skills and make myself into something more than who I am now, 5 years later.

I make strong choices when I know I can make them, when I know I& #39;ve made the right choice.

But when it comes to major life decisions, like moving or finding a career, it& #39;s impossible for me to know in the moment if I made the right choice.

That& #39;s when I get stuck.

I& #39;m an impulsive person. It& #39;s just part of the ADHD. You can bet that I& #39;ve made many spur of the moment decisions that ultimately either harmed me or were meaningless.

I don& #39;t want that to be true of my major life decisions. I don& #39;t want to carve out a useless path for myself.

I& #39;m 23 now. My death is closer today than it was yesterday. I& #39;m at a point in my life where I can create anything for myself. If only I knew where to start...

Sorry to bother y& #39;all with this thread. I just needed to share what& #39;s on my mind, now that I can think about things.