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issues manifest quadriple times when it came from your parents first (sakit hisgutan pero sige heres a thread)
ok i feel lyk crying sharing about this matter HAHA anw, both of my parents were rlly toxic. my mother was shady and invalidating towards me, and im estranged towards my father,, worst parts while i was growing up were (1) they bully me in front of my brothers and
(2) shrug away my academic achievements (would only brag about it for the expense of their pride towards people they know) (âso maayo na ka ana lugar?â) so charan growing up i was too guarded and my esteem was nowhere to be found HAHHAHA
to tell you, i was happy when they were seperated. my growth was hellish. i doubt on affection (i would always think na something is up on their sleeve), and became untrusting. wala koy lain saligan, ako ra jud. my parents never provided me to this sense of trust towards others
and i would always cry when i see parents that are supportive and loving sa kids nila. grabe ang level sa self pity. BUSA AYAW JUD KO PAKIT-A ANANG RECOLLECTION-ISH NGA VIDEOS ABOUT PARENTS KAY HILAKAN KO NAG TAMAN. KUNG PALANGGA MOS PARENTS NINYO GIATAY SWERTE KAAYO MO.
i thought i was healed. pero last night i dreamed that my father was calling me names again and rn im crying so hard,, the child in me is beaten to bruises everytime i will recall those times,, tough childhood? yes. did i waver? no, not a chance. i cant.
basically im on this thread because i want u to realize youre luckier than you thought. im not throwing the âpity meâ card, im good now. some days it haunts me pero im doing well. yes, i love my parents, will never think twice on looking after them when theyâre old na.
their parenting may be flawed and a little fucked up but i raised myself wellâfor not turning my heart stone cold; for always keeping it warm for the people i love; for not projecting my pain to those around meâ thats where id always be the proudest of myself
