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Welp, today ended on a low point.
I& #39;m having trouble articulating.
A lot of little things happened that just kinda drained me.
Mind you, nothing today/night was too terrible on its own.
(though, one of those things was my fault for being rude to someone, so that is on me)
I& #39;m having trouble articulating.
A lot of little things happened that just kinda drained me.
Mind you, nothing today/night was too terrible on its own.
(though, one of those things was my fault for being rude to someone, so that is on me)
Was embarrassed that I forgot to put & #39;pst/cali time& #39; on my schedule card (going to fix that later, too tired right at the moment)
Had low numbers (but that is to be expected) on both streams, but if feels like my game stream was almost wasted time. (game was fun though)
Had low numbers (but that is to be expected) on both streams, but if feels like my game stream was almost wasted time. (game was fun though)
The game steam didn& #39;t feel right to me though. I feel like I jumped on the deep end playing Arcade Spirits. It feels like a game you should either play on your own, or with a more active group. It needs more interactions with someone, either a direct friend, or a healthy chat...
Like, I barely had any viewers till the last hour, and only one had any direct responses or interactions.
Of course, its on me to build that chat into something... but I haven& #39;t been active or holding a reliable enough schedule to do so yet.
Of course, its on me to build that chat into something... but I haven& #39;t been active or holding a reliable enough schedule to do so yet.
Then there was a technical bork when my streaming program got stuck on a single image for about an hour I think? Have to go check the VOD later, but I am impressed at the few that stuck around for that hour if that was the case, cause it was audio only effectively...
Also feel like I& #39;m rambling too much. It doesn& #39;t help when, even with the chat at it& #39;s active points, I feel like I& #39;m mostly talking to air.
But even setting that aside, I feel so aimless in my chats. I like it when I have a through line, even when I& #39;m chatting...
But even setting that aside, I feel so aimless in my chats. I like it when I have a through line, even when I& #39;m chatting...
But lately, it feels like I& #39;m just rehasing old stuff again and again and repeating myself.
I remember streams where I was positive, energetic, thoughtful. What happened to that Pepper?
All I hear from my voice is complaints and half baked story rambles.
I remember streams where I was positive, energetic, thoughtful. What happened to that Pepper?
All I hear from my voice is complaints and half baked story rambles.
Even this thread I& #39;ve been struggling writing. Cause I& #39;m not doing it to be negative (per se) nor for sympathy. I& #39;m doing it more to kinda vent and purge, but I don& #39;t feel like any of my usual discord spaces are good at the moment...
Not that there bad, but I feel like, this is my personal space. Yeah, it& #39;s shouting off a wall in like a park in public, but it& #39;s my wall that I& #39;m sitting on I guess...
Were as I feel like either those that would commiserate with me are asleep, or I would just be suddenly shifting the tone of a channel with my blahs...
Doesn& #39;t help that that interview with the bastard that thinks he is the u.s. dictator is going around on my dash so much...
Doesn& #39;t help that that interview with the bastard that thinks he is the u.s. dictator is going around on my dash so much...
AND, on a slightly more sillier, but still depressing note: I forgot to get more milk at the store before it closed and so can& #39;t have any coffee... which would definitely help my mood right about now.
I& #39;m sorry for this blah thread. Maybe I& #39;ll keep it up, maybe I& #39;ll delete it later.
I will do my stream tomorrow. Tomorrow night, I think I& #39;m going to work more on learning and adjusting. That& #39;s what this week is for.
Hopefully, by next week, I& #39;m in a grove that I can make work.
I will do my stream tomorrow. Tomorrow night, I think I& #39;m going to work more on learning and adjusting. That& #39;s what this week is for.
Hopefully, by next week, I& #39;m in a grove that I can make work.
