[mental health] i am really just not doing well lately! i& #39;m trying my best but there& #39;s a point at which it feels like it& #39;s this formless haze encasing me and i don& #39;t even know where to start to disperse it

it& #39;s like, i managed to unpack the thing that triggered this episode during my last therapy session, but the aftermath is lingering and i don& #39;t know what to do about it. i don& #39;t get to see my therapist for two weeks because she& #39;s moving offices.

she said i could email her if i needed help processing anything but i don& #39;t even know where to start and i feel wary about contacting her outside of the hours agreed on because it feels invasive, plus idk what i can even do over text

i just want a day where i don& #39;t have to feel like i& #39;m in a constant warfare with my own head. I& #39;ve been doing ok with catching my negative thoughts and trying to replace them with an affirmation but it& #39;s like three more try to attack me as soon as i deal with one. it& #39;s exhausting

i don& #39;t mean to drag out my mental health into the public sphere but sometimes talking about it helps. i just wish i knew what i needed, because i feel like i need /something/ to get myself out of this loop but i don& #39;t know what it is.

to end this thread on a small positive i am doing my best. my family has been over the top supportive and going out of their way to help me get through this, and i& #39;ve been more in contact with other friends lately and i& #39;m extremely thankful for all of the people in my life.