I think part of this is that these are friends I’ve acquired by default. They were part of the same birth class that I was in. It’s traditional here that this group will be friends because of the shared experience of having small babies together. And while they’re nice people

They’re not my people. And it’s not like I only want IRL friends with ADHD. But it would be nice to have some. Or other people who recognise the challenges. And people who are a bit closer to my beliefs. I’ve always felt like my inner world, or online world, differs so greatly

from my IRL experience that I find it impossible to integrate the two or bring them together somehow. Or hold them both as valid and good at the same time. I’ve said before I want to try and reduce the gulf between inside and outside because I’ve pretended a lot of my life

And I don’t have the energy to do it anymore. I want to use that energy for other things. I’m also worried that that this affects my marriage but I can’t even think about that right now because the thought is too awful.

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