my adhd has been beating the brakes off me lol
the hyperfixations, short term memory loss, the way my brain prioritizes things that comfort me first vs. things that need to get done or be remembered, constantly checking my level of enthusiasm against the people i’m with (1/?)

i just saw a thread about another person’s experience w adhd and it’s good to feel seen in that way.
hearing people i love say i’m lazy or disinterested because i don’t recall small immediate details when i’m balancing ~10 different thoughts constantly is so disheartening (2/?)

i’m overwhelmed by stimulus but constantly need to be surrounded by it. it’s easier sometimes to put my phone down or prioritize interactions i know will go a certain way based on trust as opposed to starting new or different interactions because my head is literally full of bees

we can be making eye contact, i will hear everything you’re saying and i’ll nod my head in rhythm, but there’s this invisible “wall” i hit sometimes that stops any of that information from registering with me.
and i feel stupid but i know in my heart of hearts i’m fiercely not

it’s ass. and i wonder how many interactions i’ve failed as a result of being too particular or showing my personality/feelings too immediately - i’m learning the hard way to be more private and keep my cards closer to my chest tho. but i am learning. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🔥" title="Feuer" aria-label="Emoji: Feuer">

hog still fat tho