Thread by @juliakabullia, When I was 15 I was raped by Ryan Mullins in the [...]

Julia Terese

juliakabullia

When I was 15 I was raped by Ryan Mullins in the Stevens dorms in Hoboken

He would pick me up smoke me out and always tried to get me to go back to the dorms. I always said no and elaborated I would never be into him like that.

This time was different. He kept driving closer and closer as I kept asking him where we were going. He just smirked and said “you know where we’re going” despite my protests

When we finally arrived to the parking lot of the dorms and I said I wasn’t going in he got violently angry started punching the wheel and calling me a bitch. I decided I would go in and if anything we would make out and I could go home and never talk to him again.

That wasn’t his plan. When we got to his dorm he immediately got on his bed while I stayed in a chair across the room. He pestered and persisted and made me take my clothes off. He forced me to give him head (I had braces) and forcibly took my body (I was a Virgin)

I remember looking in his warped dorm room mirror afterwards and not seeing myself the girl looked so tired and old and sad.

Walking back to his car he told me “I know what I did you should be lucky I picked you” and forced me to hold his hand in the car after everything he did.

The following days I was in pa on vacation with my mom and grandma and all I really remember was seeing the blood every fucking time I went to the bathroom for a week not being able to swim in the pool I loved so much

I remember walking aimlessly in the hotel stairwells and halls just because I didn’t want to be around my mom feeling like I was already dead

I received immense pressure from my mom and therapist to go to the cops because “he will do it to another girl” but I knew I would never win. My family name already tarnished by my father and his dad being the police chief I knew even if I went to court I would never win

So this is my justice this is my freedom this is my truth I don’t want this to blow up or people to go after him resulting in it coming back to me I just want people who know him to know what he did to me

I’m debating posting his Instagram or twitter

First girl to come forward