I& #39;ve never really been good at screaming, whenever I& #39;m "supposed" to do so I just get very quiet. Usually I just disappear inside myself. Most of the times when I& #39;ve tried a more thrill-based amusement park ride I& #39;ve mostly just tried to quietly get through it until it& #39;s over.

I had fairly strong baby cholic when I was little, maybe I just got all the screaming out of my system early on.

While trying amusement park rides I& #39;ve occasionally tried to force some screams out of myself, but it& #39;s really hard. It& #39;s like I at a deeply fundamental level don& #39;t want all those judgemental stares at me, even though I know that I& #39;m in a setting where screaming is expected of me