— dahil breakup szn every szn, i’ll continue this thread. i’ll tell you how i cope up with this monstrous phase called healing.
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retrieved some of the tweets on my other account while i was going through “it” mGA MARS ANLALA glad to say i am doing so much better now. learned that forgiveness and acceptance were key to keep your mind at peace; accept what has come and gone, forgive them, forgive yourself.
there will be times that you’d find yourself wanting to reach out to them. no matter how much they’ve done you wrong, you still wanna know how they’re doing. reach out, it ain’t bad. and when they tell you that they’re doing just fine without you, don’t be bitter about it.
wish them well, wish them what they deserve. know that you’ve done your part, you gave your very best. keep in mind that when your intentions are genuine and pure, you don’t lose people, they lose you. free yourself from hatred, for your own peace of mind.
i think one of the hardest things about losing someone is going through an entire day, having so much to share but no one to tell it to. kakalimutan lahat ng nakasanayan. it’s knowing that you’ll have to start all over again, with yourself, then with someone new, someday. tiring.
it’s having to share your thoughts, your dreams, random stories, your favorite songs with another person again. mag-aantay ka ulit ng ka-vibes mo, yung kaya kang intindihin, tanggapin kung ano at sino ka. and it’s okay, but make sure handa ka na ulit, buo ka na, kaya mo na ulit.
but when you know deep down that you haven’t fully healed yet and things from your past still trigger you, focus on yourself. no one but yourself. pain is part of growing, the best thing you can do is keep going. understand that you need your own love more than they do.
god would it hurt so much when you miss them yet there’s nothing you could do about it. when they’d be the last person in your mind at night and would even appear in your dreams, only to realize the following morning that they’re no longer yours to love and hold.
one thing about me, i continued to love him even after we called it off. from afar, at least. real feelings don’t just fade away easily. my love for him was so strong that it outweighed the pain. until i got tired, realized that i was only in love with the person he used to be
realized that he’s completely changed and that’s okay. i know he loved me too, at some point. but truth be told, people change, feelings fade. and it’s gonna hurt, a lot. especially when you had to give up on that person only because they gave up on your first.
you see, if that person really wanted to, they would stay. if they really wanted you, they would step up. if they really valued you, they would make time for you, you won’t have to beg and ask. another thing i’ve learned, they would never become any better by loving them harder.
go where you are loved, stay where it is consistent. you deserve a love that you’re sure of, you deserve a lover that’s sure of you. you deserve someone who will choose to stay and fight for you, no matter what. you deserve the VERY best, why settle for less?
the healing and growing process were messy. it was me, staying up until 3am, wondering how much i could bare. one moment i’m good, then memories would hit. there was too much crying, praying for God to heal me, then i’d also pray for him. i was still selflessly in love after all.
it was me, skipping those songs which were once my favorite, only because they would remind me of him. not even wanting to stay at some parts of our house because those used to be my spots when we’d videocall each other throughout the day or late at night. it was hellish.
it was locking myself in the bathroom because i didn’t want my parents to see me heartbroken, crying over the boy i used to tell them about, the boy who once made me so happy. and when they’d ask me about him, i’d tell them, “he chose his dreams and i’m proud of him.”
i also had to acknowledge my mistakes and forgive myself, realize my wrong-doings and the times i might have hurt him. our relationship was never toxic, the vibe and connection was effortless. things inevitably just when down the drain at the last moments.
personally, the first three months are always the hardest. no matter how much you try to convince yourself that you’re over them, some days you’ll still find yourself looking back. and it’s okay, but keep going. mamimiss, siguro lilingunin, pero hindi babalikan. (uy di siya sure)
pero seryoso, someday, they will miss you the way you missed them. and you will be just fine. when you’re least expecting it, they might even try to come back. but never forget how you broke when they left. you don’t wanna put yourself in that situation again, do you?
but this does not apply to everybody. some may come back because they have changed for the better, maybe this time they want to do things right. i believe in paths reconnecting after quite a while. that doesn’t mean you’ll have to take your toxic ex back tho. think.
i remember isolating myself, i didn’t like interacting with other people, i shut everyone out. it was during this time that i realized, i need to stay strong for myself. lean on no one but myself. people are always gonna fold, so stay true to yourself, stay solid.
i started doing things i love, things i found joy in. i met new people, and before i know it, masaya na ulit ako. this time, i am a lot stronger and wiser. still full of love, just more cautious. i promise, you’re gonna want to love and appreciate yourself after everything.
i acknowledged what hurts, embraced the pain. no easy way out, i had to feel it. i was patient with myself, i fell in love with taking care of my own heart. learned to remind myself that i’ll be okay regardless. i remained focused on where i am going than who’s no longer coming.
self love heals, i swear. it will hurt less when you love yourself more. best believe you’ll fall in love again. and the next time you do, it will be beautiful, with the staying kind. but unless you’re sure, keep your heart guarded. ending this thread here. smile, love.
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