I& #39;m just...tired, y& #39;all. I& #39;m tired of mask bikini lady. I& #39;m tired of "non parents have no quarantine struggle" Brooklyn mommy. I& #39;m tired of "we can& #39;t police lake of the ozarks" from the state that brought out SWAT in Ferguson. I& #39;m tired.

I want to go to a movie with my mom and go swimming and go eat Mexican food with my bestie and hug my partner and I& #39;m not doing any of it because I have sense and so do they. I& #39;m gonna spend my 40th birthday at home. It sucks. Death, however, is permanent.

And I& #39;m an essential worker, lucky enough to work from home most of the time but regularly having to go to court and I& #39;m scared, because what if the people around me are being cavalier and I bring death home to my house? Because you wanted to grill out this weekend.

understand that if I get this or carry it to anyone I love and a contact tracer turns up your identity there is no way I& #39;m not fighting you unless death takes me first. there are kids here.

I& #39;m so very tired and I don& #39;t feel well today and knowing people are out there Masque of the Red Deathening it up pisses me all the way off.