Looking back on it, being accused of I guess having another close knit "community" when all I do is exchange a few messages once a week or so, and have a semi-frequent games with a couple of IRL friends, and the 70% of the rest of my days I talk to no one (Aside from my gf ofc),

It was just so unattached from actually knowing me it was jarring. On top of the absolute reluctance to really talk to me one on one like a normal friend, idk I guess I was the bad guy. Still kinda salty I was putting so much effort and writing into DMing a group for them. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤷‍♀️" title="Woman shrugging" aria-label="Emoji: Woman shrugging">

At least I don& #39;t feel like I& #39;m being constantly monitored anymore, even if I get the occasional uncomfortable dream of being watched. But whatever, I entered that friendship during a vulnerable time in my life while I was picking myself up and I& #39;ve accepted that.

Probably will delete this thread later haha, but I had, had a dream last night that reminded me of everything. And no matter how I may reflect on it now, abruptly losing some friendships of what.. 6 or 7 years? Is strange. Friends drifting apart is natural, but that was not it.