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last night i spent an hour wordless 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I walked in https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> today ive listened to grief creature over a hundred times
the words of other people helping me break through the hand https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> saw your face https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> of silence over my mouth
when i am too small to remember how words form by a mouth https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> white teeth clamped https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> into sentences that express fear or pain
or too lost in strong feelings https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> black tshirt https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> or emptiness to speak
and we cant say the words directly anyway https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> should have run https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> the world does not hear such expressions
for we live and breathe among those who want only to swallow https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> i was a prize https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> our tears when described in excruciating detail
not our anger at the beauty that was broken or https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> sixteen, sixteen, sixteen https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> the beauty we have created from shards and shadows and blood
last night i spent an hour wordless https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> drenched in America and sweat https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> not empty but full
breathing, just breathing https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> isnt rape funny like that https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> the one thing I could feel as a part of me
words forgotten, there were only feelings https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I have to speak in metaphor in order to get it out https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> i could not borrow phrases then
but i am now https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> in the morning https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> because i have none
i dont understand how people manufacture pain https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I told myself that ... that I was so sorry https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> who could or would create the feel of violent metaphor
or the crease in a cheek from vinyl seats https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> weaved a different story in my head https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> could mean anything but it only means one thing
forced laughter with closed eyes https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I wonder how many girls have giggled while they were raped https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> i am not ticklish
but that was what they wanted https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I bet a lot of them https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> how can i only say this now
last night i was wordless https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> somehow thought memory turns into physical memory https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> i never run, I freeze
i curl into a ball and tremble https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I feel my eyes close scared https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> my eyes are open, but what i see isnt the room around me
knowing its not happening in the here and now https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> the movie plays https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> does not stop the movie from being real
which is a difference between mary lambert and me https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> afterwards the fury comes like a wave of ashes https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> in my trembling i am what has become ashes
now i remember a time when i said i was a phoenix https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I guess what I& #39;m saying is https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> i had forgotten
but i guess https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I don& #39;t apologize like that anymore https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> i could spread my wings and fly
last night i spent an hour wordless https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> I& #39;m not a prize https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🎶" title="Multiple musical notes" aria-label="Emoji: Multiple musical notes"> as perhaps a pheonix does, before they rise
