i thought she was my twin flame but she was just a narcissist:

a storytime thread.

before anyone asks, im sharing this story for support, and to support others who have been in a similar situation. i want my story to be heard, and i want others to know they CAN break free
from this type of abuse. if anyone doesn’t know what narcissistic abuse is, here are some threads on it.
from this type of abuse. if anyone doesn’t know what narcissistic abuse is, here are some threads on it.
from this type of abuse. if anyone doesn’t know what narcissistic abuse is, here are some threads on it.
from this type of abuse. if anyone doesn’t know what narcissistic abuse is, here are some threads on it.
i was 16, i was vulnerable and heartbroken. i had just gotten out of a situationship with another asshole. i had low self esteem and thought i needed to security of a relationship to be centered and grounded, i also struggle with ptsd and bpd
so my attachment issues were at an all time high, but i was going to therapy and working through them. i was rebuilding myself. and then she walked into my life. completely off guard, she asked to come smoke at my house. i thought nothing of it, we were just friends
she was so animated and had so much to offer and share, she was like an open book with certain details. which made me feel comfortable and safe, yet i was hesitant towards her, i couldn’t figure out why i couldn’t trust her. it just didnt feel genuine, i shut her out for a long
time until she convinced me that it was just my bpd and that she truly loved spending time and bonding with me. our connection quickly became more deep and intimate, we painted on eachothers naked chests and backs, we cuddled for hours, we told stories and ate our (my) favourite
foods. she constantly would tell me how beautiful i was and how inspiring my confidence was, especially considering my past, she was so mesmerized by my past and “how much pain i could endure.” she always told me i was so strong. she took pictures of me and called me her muse
she made me open up about things i had never told ANYONE before. this was the beginning of a trauma bond. the more i confided in her the more she encouraged me to distrust the others close to me in my life at the time
i knew deep down it was all too good to be true, but i felt so comfortable with her, she had opened me up and studied me. i noticed when she started to say and do things that i posted about on my social media before we connected. i honestly thought it was sweet at first
but she had stalked me and basically registered all of my ideals in a relationship so she could mold her personality into it, making me fall in love. i was foolish and i believed her, even though everything in me told me to run
our relationship was short of a romance film in the beginning, it was incredibly fun, we were always happy, there was what felt like unconditional love. we watched interesting movies and even “did work together” even though i’m now realizing i did her work and she criticized mine
our intimate relationship was intense and passionate for me, i dont know what it was for her. but it was a major focus of hers and she felt the need to build her love for me around this, she told me it was her way of showing how much she loved me
our intimate relationship was intense and passionate for me, i dont know what it was for her. but it was a major focus of hers and she felt the need to build her love for me around this, she told me it was her way of showing how much she loved me
our intimate relationship was intense and passionate for me, i dont know what it was for her. but it was a major focus of hers and she felt the need to build her love for me around this, she told me it was her way of showing how much she loved me
she did other things of course, gave me massages and bough me small gifts or did kind gestures. she showed me off like a trophy and i honestly thought i had found “the one.” but then it all suddenly stopped, she started to disrespect me
she started telling me what to wear, cutting up or hiding my clothes she didnt like, treating me differently when my hair was different, belittling me when i didnt dress up well enough or eat “properly”, she shamed me for being depressed and insecure, she didnt touch me
she would often scoff at me or express disgust with how sad i was and how much worth i placed on how she viewed me. yet when other people would give me any sort of attention she’d immediatley be mad at them, and me. i was “looking for it” shed say
she came to my therapy appointments and manipulated my counsellors, telling them i was clingy and overbearing when i was truly just clinging to what i had left. she would smile when i cried to her, telling me i was “just being silly”
she told me it was selfish of me to expect things from her because she has a difficult past and way of processing, it broke me inside and i felt so undesirable. i couldnt see past the scope of her delusion she forced upon me. i became less and less eager to care for myself and
entirely focusing on getting things “back to the way they were before”
but she just treated me awfully. she told me it was better when i wasnt around, she always wanted space and made me feel terrible for wanted quality time with her. but everytime i would talk about ending
things she would just tell me im overreacting, im the love of her life, shes just struggling and she’s sorry. i wanted to be there for the person i loved and i didn’t understand but i accepted it. i accepted it until i couldnt anymore and i gave her an ultimatum
i told her if she didnt start to treat me better we would have to end things and i didnt want that but it was what needed to happen, i said no more breaks, no more space, lets fix this or lets be done.
she refused this and promised to work on things, she told me i was sick and i needed help and that i was draining her emotionally. boring her and not bringing anything positive to her life. i had spent hundreds of dollars on her, spent hours on resources for her mental health
took care of her physically, defended her against all those that told me the truth, i loved her so much when she treated me like a piece of shit. and that was not enough, because i wasnt the beautiful, confident, girl she idealized
i was the broken down, depressed mess that hated herself. and she refused to admit that it was her doing.

a week after our conversation where she promised to stay by my side, she left me for a man. a man she regularly spoke down on. it was instant, it shocked everyone
that we knew and nobody got it. everyone thought she hated men and that she was into girls or that she had this sexual affinity towards men but couldnt bond with them emotionally, since this is what she told everyone. her personality was based off her love for women and
disdain for men who were disrespectful, superficial and sex-driven. funny huh. she instantly dated this guy that she talked so much shit about, and i was left feeling insane. disgusted. worthless. confused. i didnt get it at all.
for about 8-11 months i was stuck. i wanted to die. i was miserable and confused, and she was telling me she was so sorry but she had to do it, and there was “no other way to leave without hurting me” but that she would always check in. she still refuses to accept that there were
for about 8-11 months i was stuck. i wanted to die. i was miserable and confused, and she was telling me she was so sorry but she had to do it, and there was “no other way to leave without hurting me” but that she would always check in. she still refuses to accept that there were
for about 8-11 months i was stuck. i wanted to die. i was miserable and confused, and she was telling me she was so sorry but she had to do it, and there was “no other way to leave without hurting me” but that she would always check in. she still refuses to accept that there were
she still hoovers in my life. shes still dating this man but calls me every couple months or so to throw me back under. the most recent time she messages me on what wouldve been our third year anniversary to make a “joke” that she was pregnant by the man she left me for.
she still hoovers in my life. shes still dating this man but calls me every couple months or so to throw me back under. the most recent time she messages me on what wouldve been our third year anniversary to make a “joke” that she was pregnant by the man she left me for.
she still hoovers in my life. shes still dating this man but calls me every couple months or so to throw me back under. the most recent time she messages me on what wouldve been our third year anniversary to make a “joke” that she was pregnant by the man she left me for.
she still hoovers in my life. shes still dating this man but calls me every couple months or so to throw me back under. the most recent time she messages me on what wouldve been our third year anniversary to make a “joke” that she was pregnant by the man she left me for.
she still hoovers in my life. shes still dating this man but calls me every couple months or so to throw me back under. the most recent time she messages me on what wouldve been our third year anniversary to make a “joke” that she was pregnant by the man she left me for.
it was the day of what wouldve been our third year anniversary. to this day she still has not genuinely accepted any responsibility in hurting me, she simply mocks me with bragging and then she leaves again. she just wants to know i still care
it was the day of what wouldve been our third year anniversary. to this day she still has not genuinely accepted any responsibility in hurting me, she simply mocks me with bragging and then she leaves again. she just wants to know i still care
it was the day of what wouldve been our third year anniversary. to this day she still has not genuinely accepted any responsibility in hurting me, she simply mocks me with bragging and then she leaves again. she just wants to know i still care
it was the day of what wouldve been our third year anniversary. to this day she still has not genuinely accepted any responsibility in hurting me, she simply mocks me with bragging and then she leaves again. she just wants to know i still care
she harasses me on a burner account and routinely attempts to log into my social media and emails. when i asked her to stop and told her id file a police report she called my grandparents crying saying she was only “worried id kill myself” and that i “need psychiatric help”
my ex was a covert narcissist. these types of narcissists are hard to spot because they often potray themselves as lost, misunderstood victims who are cruelly misjudged by society. they appear to display empathy, but only to gain some type of reward or validation
my ex was a covert narcissist. these types of narcissists are hard to spot because they often potray themselves as lost, misunderstood victims who are cruelly misjudged by society. they appear to display empathy, but only to gain some type of reward or validation
my ex was a covert narcissist. these types of narcissists are hard to spot because they often potray themselves as lost, misunderstood victims who are cruelly misjudged by society. they appear to display empathy, but only to gain some type of reward or validation
my ex was a covert narcissist. these types of narcissists are hard to spot because they often potray themselves as lost, misunderstood victims who are cruelly misjudged by society. they appear to display empathy, but only to gain some type of reward or validation
i took a break from this thread because i got exhausted talking about her. but i am still processing that none of it was real. that she was not real. that she knew/knows how she is hurting me and possibly enjoys it. that she stalked me and preyed on me to boost her ego/confidence
i am still struggling to adjust and see the world the same. she put me through hell and i know she is not sorry. she groomed me the entire relationship to believe wed “always end up back together” but she “needed to experience” she told me shed “always come back to me”
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