this made me cry because it& #39;s so truehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face"> as a former varsity athlete who didn& #39;t get the chance to choose whether or not to continue my sport there& #39;s always that lingering bittersweetness that i can& #39;t get rid of when i see something that reminds me of what i used to do https://twitter.com/foshouyou/status/1259292170109976576">https://twitter.com/foshouyou...

i didnt realize it back then but i enjoyed and maybe even loved my sport and looking at udai& #39;s panel, i can just vividly imagine what his expression morphs into as he looks at the court and the feelings that course through him as he does so.

it& #39;s honestly painful to know that you can never be the same level as the you in your glory days, and that you& #39;ve already become a has-been watching those who are excelling at what you desperately want to do. (i can& #39;t speak 100% for udai but that& #39;s how i feel about my case)

i dont want to make my thread long since absolutely no one asked for this but im glad that i came across this thread since it articulated what i had difficulty putting into coherent words.

sadly, i cant end my thread on a lighter note since im still living in the past and havent got complete closure yet but to anyone who feels the same way, we& #39;ll push throughhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✊" title="Raised fist" aria-label="Emoji: Raised fist"> so thank you for listening to my ted talkhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😊" title="Smiling face with smiling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with smiling eyes"> hope y& #39;all have a great day/night!!https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💗" title="Growing heart" aria-label="Emoji: Growing heart">