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im going to rant and rationalize everything publicly in this thread! bc i can xoxox

the soonest i can find a (lasting) job is fall this year. the soonest i can start college is in fall next year. the soonest i can get top surgery is probably fall in three/four years.

these are the things giving me perspective and goals and a reason to eat like a normal person and yk, not die,,

i cant give you a rational reason (when i write this) why i should give my life up to lose weight. but like. i want to!!!! i cant not not lose weight

i just.. wat do... wat do???