it& #39;s ncie that i& #39;m up at odd hours when i post things i decide are waaaay too personal lmfao

god it& #39;s so fucked up like, being so busy that i stay up late enough that it& #39;s like, god it& #39;s almost 8 am and i didn& #39;t sleep

i& #39;m doing that math thing where i& #39;m like, is 4 hours enough

i& #39;ll be getting more sleep soon once this is all over, which sounds incredibly menacing if you know about how depressed i& #39;ve been feeling, but i& #39;m actually doing great lmfao

i& #39;m just super busy with other stuff!!!

like holy cow i don& #39;t want to jinx it but it& #39;s like night and day. i keep waiting to crash but it& #39;s like, 80% of my depression has been eliminated. i& #39;m genuinely surprised at how much energy i have, and yet how calm i can feel lmao

like a problem right now is that i stayed up too late working on stuff because i& #39;ve had so much energy today that this is like, peak energy level for god, even a month ago

even right before this. i was at one of the lowest points in my life -- it& #39;s like a fever broke