A while ago deep down I convinced myself to keep running for my life and chaes my dreams, and never turn back, but I realized that the way I& #39;m holding things in my prain is stressful, and won& #39;t let me go anywhere furtherhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Pensive face" aria-label="Emoji: Pensive face">, feels like I stucked in my past...

with the person who I supposed to be accompanying with during the process, but she left, soI felt unmotivated and depressed and no longer have the desire to do anything else but sinking into old memories, with so many failure attempts to get over her...till I become introverted.

Today, I had a massage from her after more than a year!!! Asking how I am?
I was all over the place, no words could explain how I fuckn am!!! I didn& #39;t know what to say, it& #39;s just painful, I could say millions of words,
Idk why making this thread, just want to be heard.