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sobrang irrelevant but kung gusto nyo basahin. go ahead and thank you.
why am i an indecisive stupid unworthy bij, a thread.
why am i an indecisive stupid unworthy bij, a thread.
you see i was off stan twt last week? or few days ago? basta mga ganon.
kung maaalala nyo guys w/c ayoko na i-bring up but yeah...the issue abt jisoo was pretty shallow for others but it was a big deal for me.
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kung maaalala nyo guys w/c ayoko na i-bring up but yeah...the issue abt jisoo was pretty shallow for others but it was a big deal for me.
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you see, things like those dont happen once in a blue moon but every damn time. that time, kakabalik ko lang fresh from the oven sa stan twt.
and super nakakalungkot yep, that those antis exists. for others, you would say. you could just ignore them. but i cant do that.
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and super nakakalungkot yep, that those antis exists. for others, you would say. you could just ignore them. but i cant do that.
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before this acc, i have a previous acc na. that has the same username as mine. that time i was emotionally unstable. basta di ko na ididiscuss publicly kasi baka magkaiyakan pa kami ng cellphone ko.
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honestly guys, i rlly hate leaving. the concept being left behind hurts but sa mga taong umaalis it hurts 1000x more.
i made so much friends that time, i had the purest friends ever i didnt expect to have.
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i made so much friends that time, i had the purest friends ever i didnt expect to have.
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i told them my reason was bc im busy with my studies. but sh*ts happened that time. i will sum it up
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research paper (4 days deadline until chap3) > defense next 2 weeks before semis >> training for a competition for a day > an old friend of mine took her own life > a relative of mine died >> the man i liked confessed to me he likes me then after a month or two may m.u. na
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our coach told me na we cannot compete anymore & will recruit freshmen & ung last na namin is dapat nitong april > my irl friends had jowaers & got busy > the ecq happened cancelling awardings, grads & my very last competition was cancelled > gov& #39;t being stupid
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and one thing& #39;s for sure that made me so sad was missing my stan twt friends and family-like mutuals here.
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for others this is pretty shallow and super dramatic but as someone who identifies herself opmitistic and who often portray posivity, it was hard for me.
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that time i dont wann buy the idea na i am going through some emotional disasters kasi i dont wanna sound like a person of self-pity. i always insist to the symptoms of having emotional disorders. until it got pretty serious dahil i lost ppl who i love and treasure
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i have so many regrets in 2019 up until now. so yeah, i looked up for what i am possibly going through i dont wanna call it anxiety kasi natatakot ako, siguro anxious nalang (para hindi mabigat sa loob ko skhdksh)
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so ayon when the sh*t with jisoo happened, and i noticed how my daily stan twt routine came out. it& #39;s like pumupunta nalang ako dito just for the sake of saving myself from going back here...kaso i felt unwanted.
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although, some of u guys were always there for me. but how i felt was empty.
(yuck ang arti) anyways, i was messed up that time, last week, so i dractivated.
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(yuck ang arti) anyways, i was messed up that time, last week, so i dractivated.
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why come back now?
alam ko di nyo na ko kailangan dito but i really missed my au and my readers.
my readers, especially that acc. i would like to thank uuuu i wont mention you since nakakahiya sayo skshskdjs but rlly. thank u, you made my hopes up again.
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alam ko di nyo na ko kailangan dito but i really missed my au and my readers.
my readers, especially that acc. i would like to thank uuuu i wont mention you since nakakahiya sayo skshskdjs but rlly. thank u, you made my hopes up again.
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thank u rin po sa constant mama ko 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face"> ik this is super bias but most of u dont know but i dont like being clingy ksksksks but my mama just makes me feel cozy like rosie ch4r so, nakapag-open up ako sa kanya and she understood me and accepts me...over and over and over again
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also sa mga taong niyakap ako after ko bumalik hindi naman literal na yakap pero yung winelcomeback ako hehe, i cant wait to see all of u guys irl and be able to hug you and thank uuu :((
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so ayon, im back for actual good and is trying my best to stop being dramatic. i wont leave stan twt. if i ever have some issues again. i will cope with it maturely hehe.
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17/n
point of the kaartehan thread
is to be open people of the unvierse
mahirap but it rlly helps
piliin nyo nalang yung tao
after u opened up listen to them, make sure they are people who wants good for u & someone who wont sugarcoat their words out just to make u feel better
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is to be open people of the unvierse
mahirap but it rlly helps
piliin nyo nalang yung tao
after u opened up listen to them, make sure they are people who wants good for u & someone who wont sugarcoat their words out just to make u feel better
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ayon love you all, i miss you all everyday, pa-kih char. ayon. let& #39;s be stronger than ever ha? thank u for reading this thread if nakaabot ka dito hehe https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💖" title="Sparkling heart" aria-label="Emoji: Sparkling heart">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💖" title="Sparkling heart" aria-label="Emoji: Sparkling heart">
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