TL asleep?

Okay it doesn& #39;t matter anyway
I hate how I& #39;ve felt ugly ever since I was born. I always had a prettier friend who people would compliment and go to the extent of saying "no not that one" whilst pointing at me "that one next to her" I& #39;ve always felt inadequate

I just wish my own mom or dad would tell me I& #39;m pretty. They& #39;ve never told me that.
Now that sengiqalile ukujola lento iyang& #39;affecta. I seek attention amd validation from guys who just want to fuck and leave. They tell me I& #39;m pretty and that& #39;s just music to my ears. Right now I& #39;m

...scared of guys. I& #39;m scared of myself. I& #39;m scared of living another day...it may seem small to anyone reading this but I& #39;ve been suffering in silence ever since. High school years were worse...and it& #39;s gotten worse. It& #39;s as if the people that I meet each one of them add on

Been trying to drink and cut away the pain of everything. Things that happened way back cause...I never talk about these things