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Where I& #39;m at:
Now, April 3, abt 3 hours in to my birthday.
Usually only remembered by me, everyone else that would remember is gone, hubby usually forgets.
Kinda sucks, but it is what it is.
I& #39;m ok, but my head won& #39;t shut off.
I miss my Gramp& #39;s B& #39;day cards he& #39;d send every year
Now, April 3, abt 3 hours in to my birthday.
Usually only remembered by me, everyone else that would remember is gone, hubby usually forgets.
Kinda sucks, but it is what it is.
I& #39;m ok, but my head won& #39;t shut off.
I miss my Gramp& #39;s B& #39;day cards he& #39;d send every year
And TOMORROW, April 4th is just off the chart in the head game for me.
April 4, 1962: My older brother died (year b4 I was born)
April 4, 1972: My Great-Grampa died
April 4, 1992: My Gramps died
Anyone have the numbers on the odds of that?
THEN....
April 4, 1962: My older brother died (year b4 I was born)
April 4, 1972: My Great-Grampa died
April 4, 1992: My Gramps died
Anyone have the numbers on the odds of that?
THEN....
April 6, 1977... 3 days after my 13th B& #39;day...
My younger sister fell at school and broke her thumb.
The Catholic nuns wouldn& #39;t let her call our mother until after morning prayer. She came to my class crying, her thumb was gross, hanging, swollen. I was trying not to freak out.
My younger sister fell at school and broke her thumb.
The Catholic nuns wouldn& #39;t let her call our mother until after morning prayer. She came to my class crying, her thumb was gross, hanging, swollen. I was trying not to freak out.
I told her to ignore the control bitch nuns, go to the deli and call home.
Our neighbor gave mom and our baby brother a ride and they took sis to the hospital.
Bad break, at the base of the thumb.
So while all this is happening...
Our house was literally burning to the ground.
Our neighbor gave mom and our baby brother a ride and they took sis to the hospital.
Bad break, at the base of the thumb.
So while all this is happening...
Our house was literally burning to the ground.
Most everyone in the neighborhood was either at work or school. The milkman saw the smoke, ran to the neighbor& #39;s house to call the FD. 3 volunteer firemen lived next door. 1 happened to be home!
They saw mom& #39;s car in the drive and thought she was home, milkman kicked in...
They saw mom& #39;s car in the drive and thought she was home, milkman kicked in...
the front door, the flash burnt his hair off!
He had burns on his face. JFC!
Mrs. Greco was 85, she drove the firetruck to our house!
3 Engine companies showed up, the only water was in the pond up the street (no hydrants close by) they had to connect many hoses to put it out...
He had burns on his face. JFC!
Mrs. Greco was 85, she drove the firetruck to our house!
3 Engine companies showed up, the only water was in the pond up the street (no hydrants close by) they had to connect many hoses to put it out...
Everyone in school knew at lunchtime but nobody said a word abt what was happening. Lots of whispers, strange looks (more than usual), I just felt bad vibes.
My Great-Aunt and another neighbor came 2 school 2 pick us up. They didn& #39;t even know each other! WTF? Sumpin& #39;s def wrong.
My Great-Aunt and another neighbor came 2 school 2 pick us up. They didn& #39;t even know each other! WTF? Sumpin& #39;s def wrong.
They took us home, I wish they hadn& #39;t. The house was still smoking (you never forget that smell) floor beams relit, FD had to come back. Oh, and because father was a gun nutter, it hampered the firemen because rounds were going off and they couldn& #39;t go inside, so they let it burn
The fire started in the kitchen. Toaster outlet caused an electrical fire inside the wall.
It was over 2000 degrees in the house, paper, wood, etc was just combusting in other rooms.
It was surreal going in afterwards.
Charred, wet, tragic mess.
It ended my material desires.
It was over 2000 degrees in the house, paper, wood, etc was just combusting in other rooms.
It was surreal going in afterwards.
Charred, wet, tragic mess.
It ended my material desires.
If my sister had not broken her thumb on the playground
If she listened to the nuns and waited until after morning prayer,
If she didn& #39;t come to my class.
If she didn& #39;t call home when I told her to...
The neighborhood fireman told us:
My baby brother and mother would have died.
If she listened to the nuns and waited until after morning prayer,
If she didn& #39;t come to my class.
If she didn& #39;t call home when I told her to...
The neighborhood fireman told us:
My baby brother and mother would have died.
What was lost?
Pictures, identity grounding shit, anything that remained of my older brother& #39;s existence (mass cards, pics, etc)
The $65 of Birthday money I had in a can, saving for a bike, material stuff that was a representation of who I was for the first 13 years of my life.
Pictures, identity grounding shit, anything that remained of my older brother& #39;s existence (mass cards, pics, etc)
The $65 of Birthday money I had in a can, saving for a bike, material stuff that was a representation of who I was for the first 13 years of my life.
I have been socially isolating for decades
My "baby" brother died in 2016, haven& #39;t spoken to my sisters or mother in 20+ years, my abusive old man is dead,
and I think the world has gone off the rails...
Sooo..
That& #39;s where my head is at right now.
But I& #39;m ok.
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My "baby" brother died in 2016, haven& #39;t spoken to my sisters or mother in 20+ years, my abusive old man is dead,
and I think the world has gone off the rails...
Sooo..
That& #39;s where my head is at right now.
But I& #39;m ok.
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I may delete this thread at some point.
I don& #39;t usually tell people half the shit I& #39;m dealing with.
It isn& #39;t important and I know there are so many who are dealing with trauma, abuse and tragedy as I type this.
I& #39;m just lonely venting, my hubby is working 3rd shift all week.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">
I don& #39;t usually tell people half the shit I& #39;m dealing with.
It isn& #39;t important and I know there are so many who are dealing with trauma, abuse and tragedy as I type this.
I& #39;m just lonely venting, my hubby is working 3rd shift all week.
